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Monday, June 28, 2010
Aura color meanings
This is way interesting!
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Wind On Sea by Anuna
The song is beautiful but I can't find any link of the song to post but here are the words.....very haunting and poetic......
Ailiu iath nErenn...
I am the wind that breathes on the sea
I am the wave, wave on the ocean
I am the ray, the eye of the sun
I am the tomb, cold in the darkness
Who but I can cast light upon the meeting of the mountains?
Who but I will find the place where hides away the sun?
I am a star, the tear of the sun
I am a wonder, a wonder in flower
I am the spear as it cries out for blood
The word of great power
I am the wind that breathes on the sea
Who but I can cast light upon the meeting of the mountains?
Who but I will cry aloud the changes in the moon?
Who but I will find the place where hides away the sun?
I am the depths of a great pool
I am the song of the blackbird
I am wind that breathes on the sea
Who but I can cast light upon the meeting of the mountains?
Who but I will cry aloud the changes in the moon?
Who but I will find the place where hides away the sun?
Ailiu iath nErenn...
From the breeze on the mountain to the lake of deep blue
From the waterfall down to the sea
Never changing or ending on the voice of the wind
Sing the dark song of Erenn to me
Ailiu iath nErenn...
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Ailiu iath nErenn...
I am the wind that breathes on the sea
I am the wave, wave on the ocean
I am the ray, the eye of the sun
I am the tomb, cold in the darkness
Who but I can cast light upon the meeting of the mountains?
Who but I will find the place where hides away the sun?
I am a star, the tear of the sun
I am a wonder, a wonder in flower
I am the spear as it cries out for blood
The word of great power
I am the wind that breathes on the sea
Who but I can cast light upon the meeting of the mountains?
Who but I will cry aloud the changes in the moon?
Who but I will find the place where hides away the sun?
I am the depths of a great pool
I am the song of the blackbird
I am wind that breathes on the sea
Who but I can cast light upon the meeting of the mountains?
Who but I will cry aloud the changes in the moon?
Who but I will find the place where hides away the sun?
Ailiu iath nErenn...
From the breeze on the mountain to the lake of deep blue
From the waterfall down to the sea
Never changing or ending on the voice of the wind
Sing the dark song of Erenn to me
Ailiu iath nErenn...
Signing Off 00:04
Sunday, June 27, 2010
my life is what it is
my life is what it is
you don't like it stay the hell out
i listen to what other people have to say
i hear the whispers of them all, with their careers
their new cars, their husbands and wives
their big houses, their kids
i don't care and i don't compare
my life to theirs
i have a full time job, a car that's paid off, a boyfriend of two years,
live rent free, have a cat that is my kid, the fire house,
good friends, a mom and a dad, two sisters, a niece and one grudge
against all the people who want to know what i am doing
with my 30 year old life
its getting old folks!
the whispers, the comparisons, the talk, and the stares
the jokes, the rumors, I JUST DON'T CARE!
My life turned out this way for a reason
i do what i do and that is enough
for all you nay sayers
walk around in my shoes for a day
and i bet you couldn't live this way
so go back to your houses, cars, careers, and kids
i am perfectly happy the way that i live
c. 2010 Moonghozt
Signing Off 23:40
you don't like it stay the hell out
i listen to what other people have to say
i hear the whispers of them all, with their careers
their new cars, their husbands and wives
their big houses, their kids
i don't care and i don't compare
my life to theirs
i have a full time job, a car that's paid off, a boyfriend of two years,
live rent free, have a cat that is my kid, the fire house,
good friends, a mom and a dad, two sisters, a niece and one grudge
against all the people who want to know what i am doing
with my 30 year old life
its getting old folks!
the whispers, the comparisons, the talk, and the stares
the jokes, the rumors, I JUST DON'T CARE!
My life turned out this way for a reason
i do what i do and that is enough
for all you nay sayers
walk around in my shoes for a day
and i bet you couldn't live this way
so go back to your houses, cars, careers, and kids
i am perfectly happy the way that i live
c. 2010 Moonghozt
Signing Off 23:40
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Dad's dance recital video!
This is my Dad, Carrie, and Julie dancing to "Back In Business" by Madonna.
2010 Gone Dancing Recital, Oyster Bay, New York
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2010 Gone Dancing Recital, Oyster Bay, New York
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Monday, June 7, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
things you find in the jungleyard....
things you find in the jungleyard: a list
1. empty plastic water bottle
2. LARGE chunk of asphalt
3. chicken wire buried in dirt
4. one 2x4
5. empty bag of doritos
6. two baseballs
7. half full plastic water bottle
8. rotted wood
9. half of a plastic bucket
10. what once was a red rubber ball
11. a fork
12. unidentified plastic object
13. many many miles of thorn vines
14. a wrapper for something
15. the yard cart
16. rusted metal thingie
17. lots of holes in the ground
18. rotted fence post
welcome to the jungleyard......to be continued.....
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Friday, May 14, 2010
survival
I guess I've been putting THIS new post off long enough....it's been a rough few weeks.
Being in the field of work I'm in I see a lot of people just trying to survive. Just trying to get to the next day, the next week, the next month. Meanwhile they are sick, can't breathe, can't eat, on so many meds it would make your head spin. But they WANT to survive. Then there are the ones who have an existence that's great...house, job, car, kids, not sick, not on drugs but they don't want to survive. I'm muddling about in my life still figuring things out (yes, i survived 30 and still have no clue where my life is going) and these people want to wipe themselves out. I saw my first one a few years after getting into the fire department and let me tell you, 11 years in they don't get any easier. Kinda like the first cardiac arrest I rode in on....no chance he was gonna make it, but I lost it at the hospital anyway and cried my eyes out for a good 15 minutes. It wasn't fair....why was I picked for this business? Why me? But I guess I was destined so I stayed put....let me tell you...I survived that indoctrination....everyone who does this has to.
My first ever time I had to deal with suicide was a friend in high school....we were 17 years old.....think you don't think of that stuff at 17? Think again. 17 was two years before I joined the fire department....I was raised on the fire department....my Dad joined when I was 4 years old.....he became a single parent when I was 9. So where did we go when he had meetings and drills? Anyone have a guess? I do know that I was probably programmed with this in my blood at birth, my Mom being an EMT and my Dad being an EMT-I prior to my being born. I don't really sweat the calls as much as I did when I younger and greener.....the guy under the train was no problem to deal with.....he would have been 10 years ago though. I tell all the new kids that come in that if a call bothers them they should come talk about it to us. Don't keep it in cause it will chew you up and spit you out in the end.
Suicide is harder to deal with when it's a friend as it was this past month. I don't blame him for doing it but I'm angry him for leaving behind all those who cared for him and that who loved him with no explanation. I totally understand the mentality it takes to get to that place where you want to off yourself. I've been there, trust me, it sucks. I got counseling at the time, changed my life and got better. Now all I want to do is live because most of the time I love it. I just hope my friend found the peace he was looking for and I hope we will all be able to move on. I'm not going to forget him, mind you, but I will remember him for who he was and what a good friend he was. Not how he went out.
So I continue to survive every day and I intend to enjoy my life! I had a rockin' birthday party, FINALLY got myself a new laptop (no more dinosaur!) and have been hanging out with people who are good for me.
Some more bad news did creep in but like everything else you gotta take it in and move on. The daycare I work for is closing so at the end of May I will be jobless!
So we will see where this adventure of my life will go and see what otherpossibilities are out there......hence the title of my blog.
Rest in Peace brother.....hopefully I will meet you again someday.
Signing Off 16:48
Being in the field of work I'm in I see a lot of people just trying to survive. Just trying to get to the next day, the next week, the next month. Meanwhile they are sick, can't breathe, can't eat, on so many meds it would make your head spin. But they WANT to survive. Then there are the ones who have an existence that's great...house, job, car, kids, not sick, not on drugs but they don't want to survive. I'm muddling about in my life still figuring things out (yes, i survived 30 and still have no clue where my life is going) and these people want to wipe themselves out. I saw my first one a few years after getting into the fire department and let me tell you, 11 years in they don't get any easier. Kinda like the first cardiac arrest I rode in on....no chance he was gonna make it, but I lost it at the hospital anyway and cried my eyes out for a good 15 minutes. It wasn't fair....why was I picked for this business? Why me? But I guess I was destined so I stayed put....let me tell you...I survived that indoctrination....everyone who does this has to.
My first ever time I had to deal with suicide was a friend in high school....we were 17 years old.....think you don't think of that stuff at 17? Think again. 17 was two years before I joined the fire department....I was raised on the fire department....my Dad joined when I was 4 years old.....he became a single parent when I was 9. So where did we go when he had meetings and drills? Anyone have a guess? I do know that I was probably programmed with this in my blood at birth, my Mom being an EMT and my Dad being an EMT-I prior to my being born. I don't really sweat the calls as much as I did when I younger and greener.....the guy under the train was no problem to deal with.....he would have been 10 years ago though. I tell all the new kids that come in that if a call bothers them they should come talk about it to us. Don't keep it in cause it will chew you up and spit you out in the end.
Suicide is harder to deal with when it's a friend as it was this past month. I don't blame him for doing it but I'm angry him for leaving behind all those who cared for him and that who loved him with no explanation. I totally understand the mentality it takes to get to that place where you want to off yourself. I've been there, trust me, it sucks. I got counseling at the time, changed my life and got better. Now all I want to do is live because most of the time I love it. I just hope my friend found the peace he was looking for and I hope we will all be able to move on. I'm not going to forget him, mind you, but I will remember him for who he was and what a good friend he was. Not how he went out.
So I continue to survive every day and I intend to enjoy my life! I had a rockin' birthday party, FINALLY got myself a new laptop (no more dinosaur!) and have been hanging out with people who are good for me.
Some more bad news did creep in but like everything else you gotta take it in and move on. The daycare I work for is closing so at the end of May I will be jobless!
So we will see where this adventure of my life will go and see what otherpossibilities are out there......hence the title of my blog.
Rest in Peace brother.....hopefully I will meet you again someday.
Signing Off 16:48
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