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been feeling kinda blah lately. hate everything. no energy. just feel lousy. don't even want to go to calls any more.

what the hell is wrong with me?

blog again when my mood improves.


Signing Off 23:44

blogging from the car!

So I have discovered that blogger has a mobile site which will now allow me to blog from my blackberry! This will make it easier to pour out my insanity to my readers from wherever I am! So look for more blogs coming as I explore this new avenue. I'm headed over to my Mom's house to take her out for lunch and then see what the day brings us.
I am going to share one deep insight into what I have learned this 4th of July weekend. Ok, that sounds reasonable enough.
I pondered this question for all of 2 1/2 minutes and discovered that I HAVE AN EXTRA DAY OFF THIS WEEK!! Yea for me!!! Hopefully I will get something accomplished other then sitting on my ass tomorrow!

Happy Birthday USA!!!!

Signing Off 13:06

speaking of....

NOTHING HERE MAKES ANY SENSE PART 1

life
what is life? how do you define it?
is just BEING good enough?
should you try to improve your being?
are you good enough as you are?

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i like being who i am,
i've gotten quite used my being in the last 30 years
what would come about if i couldn't stand myself?
would i change into someone else or
would i continue to hate myself?

at least that's one person i don't have to worry about


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things to change part 1:

my bad attitude
intolerance of stupidity
people's inability to handle the simplest tasks without fucking up
the way the planets are aligned
the surface of the sun
the way the sun makes my hair burning hot when i've sat in the car for awhile on a hot day
certain people's immaturity and pure disregard for others
my brown eyes
the spot on the rug of unknown origin

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live life to the best of my ability
take things as they come and go
don't worry so damn much
i'm in love with my air conditioner
bed head is bad news
what matters at noon doesn't necessarily matter at 3am
loves makes the heart grow
understanding is understandable


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Signing Off 00:30

Aura color meanings

This is way interesting!

http://www.reiki-for-holistic-health.com/auracolormeanings.html


Signing Off 00:04

Wind On Sea by Anuna

The song is beautiful but I can't find any link of the song to post but here are the words.....very haunting and poetic......


Ailiu iath nErenn...

I am the wind that breathes on the sea
I am the wave, wave on the ocean
I am the ray, the eye of the sun
I am the tomb, cold in the darkness

Who but I can cast light upon the meeting of the mountains?
Who but I will find the place where hides away the sun?

I am a star, the tear of the sun
I am a wonder, a wonder in flower
I am the spear as it cries out for blood
The word of great power
I am the wind that breathes on the sea

Who but I can cast light upon the meeting of the mountains?
Who but I will cry aloud the changes in the moon?
Who but I will find the place where hides away the sun?

I am the depths of a great pool
I am the song of the blackbird
I am wind that breathes on the sea

Who but I can cast light upon the meeting of the mountains?
Who but I will cry aloud the changes in the moon?
Who but I will find the place where hides away the sun?

Ailiu iath nErenn...

From the breeze on the mountain to the lake of deep blue
From the waterfall down to the sea
Never changing or ending on the voice of the wind
Sing the dark song of Erenn to me

Ailiu iath nErenn...


Signing Off 00:04

my life is what it is

my life is what it is
you don't like it stay the hell out
i listen to what other people have to say
i hear the whispers of them all, with their careers
their new cars, their husbands and wives
their big houses, their kids

i don't care and i don't compare
my life to theirs

i have a full time job, a car that's paid off, a boyfriend of two years,
live rent free, have a cat that is my kid, the fire house,
good friends, a mom and a dad, two sisters, a niece and one grudge

against all the people who want to know what i am doing
with my 30 year old life

its getting old folks!
the whispers, the comparisons, the talk, and the stares
the jokes, the rumors, I JUST DON'T CARE!

My life turned out this way for a reason
i do what i do and that is enough
for all you nay sayers
walk around in my shoes for a day
and i bet you couldn't live this way

so go back to your houses, cars, careers, and kids
i am perfectly happy the way that i live


c. 2010 Moonghozt


Signing Off 23:40

Dad's dance recital video!

This is my Dad, Carrie, and Julie dancing to "Back In Business" by Madonna.

2010 Gone Dancing Recital, Oyster Bay, New York




Signing Off 21:25