sitting here in the dark watching tv and surfing the net. snow standby first for the year. the snow is falling people are plowing yet i sit here watching tv. no motivation at 2:30 in the morning. need to sleep but i'm not tired. hopefully no work tomorrow....i don't think i'd be able to get there anyway. working without any sleep is impossible...wouldn't be the first time this week. two calls the other morning at 5am that was hell when i got to work dealing with screaming kids and cranky teachers who don't understand my dilemma. they never understand when i've been up all night which seems to happen more than usual lately. the pain in my knee keeps me up, the pain in my back keeps me up, no sleep no sleep. night after night i get 3 or maybe 4 hours, exhausted exhausted but that's what my life has become now. i take it in stride the last 11 years hasn't been easy but i look to the future now and see what's ahead. dwelling in the past doesn't help anyone. sitting here in the present in the dark while its snowing outside and i'm being lazy. snow standby.
Signing off 02:37
